Ritchie,
Shortly after 9/11, I volunteered for duty as a Federal Air Marshal for six months. I started on October 1, 2001. I started flying after only what amounted to a way to short FAM training session (no where near what a permanent guy goes through and I can assure you it was so brief as to make you shiver if you had to do this). I started to fly by the second week of October. I flew either four or five days per week for 6 months. As soon as two weeks after I started flying, I heard stiff criticisms from passengers on the plane, whom did not realize that I was a FAM, about how little the government was doing the right thing to protect them. I wanted really badly to punch a few of them right in the mouth, and maybe even give them an express ticket to the ground, but they were the people whom I was there to protect.
I had never been in the military so was never in a war, but I had made plenty of arrests in my career as a federal agent first in the Border patrol and then for the Customs Service (defunct as of March 1 - the oldest federal agency was done away with without so much as a goodbye). I knew about fear, being beaten badly and otherwise injured while making arrests. Yet that fear was nothing compared to what was in store for me as a FAM. I also knew fear when I worked as a volunteer in the rubble of the World Trade center. Those fears were nothing as to what was to come.
Starting in October 2001, for at least the first three or four weeks, I just about dirtied my pants each time the plane started to roll down the runway. I was really that scared in the belief that my partner and I were on the next plane to be hijacked, and it would be up to us to prevent the next World Trade Center or Pentagon by possibly becoming the next to hit the field in Pennsylvania. I don't remember if it was before leaving on my first flight as a FAM, or during the first week of flights or so that, I sent an email to a friend who had recently retired from Customs. He was a Marine, and will always be a Marine at heart. I expressed my belief, as silly as it may have been, that I was going to be killed while flying as a FAM. He tried to assure me that all would be well, but I was petrified of the prospects before me and told him so. I needed someone to know I was afraid despite the fact I knew: I would fly, and would take the right action if the time ever came. No one was getting past me into that cockpit. Yet, I was more scared than I remember ever having been in my whole life, and I did not want to scare my family so I relied upon this fine friend as a confidant.
Well, this friend of mine, this retired Customs Agent, this Marine, this good man - he sent me some words to think about. Words that when I did thought about them, I realized reflected what my friend was thinking about me because I had volunteered to do the right thing for our country. He truly admired me for having done so. That did not really make things better for me as far as being scared to death went, but it did help me to know that someone out there was in my corner - someone appreciated what I was doing, someone understood why I was doing it.
These are the words that come to my mind when I now think of those who go off to protect freedom, and to fight tyranny. They are the words of one of the greatest of all Americans, one of our founding fathers. I offer them up in way of a dedication to the men and women of the United States Armed Forces who are now in harm's way, they go like this:
God Bless America and keep or service people safe from harm.
Best regards,
Glenn B
Shortly after 9/11, I volunteered for duty as a Federal Air Marshal for six months. I started on October 1, 2001. I started flying after only what amounted to a way to short FAM training session (no where near what a permanent guy goes through and I can assure you it was so brief as to make you shiver if you had to do this). I started to fly by the second week of October. I flew either four or five days per week for 6 months. As soon as two weeks after I started flying, I heard stiff criticisms from passengers on the plane, whom did not realize that I was a FAM, about how little the government was doing the right thing to protect them. I wanted really badly to punch a few of them right in the mouth, and maybe even give them an express ticket to the ground, but they were the people whom I was there to protect.
I had never been in the military so was never in a war, but I had made plenty of arrests in my career as a federal agent first in the Border patrol and then for the Customs Service (defunct as of March 1 - the oldest federal agency was done away with without so much as a goodbye). I knew about fear, being beaten badly and otherwise injured while making arrests. Yet that fear was nothing compared to what was in store for me as a FAM. I also knew fear when I worked as a volunteer in the rubble of the World Trade center. Those fears were nothing as to what was to come.
Starting in October 2001, for at least the first three or four weeks, I just about dirtied my pants each time the plane started to roll down the runway. I was really that scared in the belief that my partner and I were on the next plane to be hijacked, and it would be up to us to prevent the next World Trade Center or Pentagon by possibly becoming the next to hit the field in Pennsylvania. I don't remember if it was before leaving on my first flight as a FAM, or during the first week of flights or so that, I sent an email to a friend who had recently retired from Customs. He was a Marine, and will always be a Marine at heart. I expressed my belief, as silly as it may have been, that I was going to be killed while flying as a FAM. He tried to assure me that all would be well, but I was petrified of the prospects before me and told him so. I needed someone to know I was afraid despite the fact I knew: I would fly, and would take the right action if the time ever came. No one was getting past me into that cockpit. Yet, I was more scared than I remember ever having been in my whole life, and I did not want to scare my family so I relied upon this fine friend as a confidant.
Well, this friend of mine, this retired Customs Agent, this Marine, this good man - he sent me some words to think about. Words that when I did thought about them, I realized reflected what my friend was thinking about me because I had volunteered to do the right thing for our country. He truly admired me for having done so. That did not really make things better for me as far as being scared to death went, but it did help me to know that someone out there was in my corner - someone appreciated what I was doing, someone understood why I was doing it.
These are the words that come to my mind when I now think of those who go off to protect freedom, and to fight tyranny. They are the words of one of the greatest of all Americans, one of our founding fathers. I offer them up in way of a dedication to the men and women of the United States Armed Forces who are now in harm's way, they go like this:
Thomas Paine, in the introduction to The American Crisis 1776
God Bless America and keep or service people safe from harm.
Best regards,
Glenn B